Holding Pattern
Bugger all to hell. Can't use the method I was gonna to post pictures due to an impenetrable fire-wall at my office. AND I am hovering in a viscious plateau around 246. Now, normally, knowing that I weigh 246 would be thrilling. By god, that's practically 100 pounds since June 2nd. But, I've been hovering at this weight ALL MONTH and I want to go down.
So, I figure it can't be just fate being cruel to me, I had to look at my eating habits and see if I was still on track. Sure enough, I was not. Ever since discovering that candy doesn't make me ill, I would allow myself the occasional bite of sugary goop. Also, I've discovered that I'm getting hungry again. So, while in the past I did just fine bringing breakfast, or nothing at all to work for food, now I'm finding that if I don't bring a dinner, I eat a bit of bagel, or something else that's equally awfull.
Today, I decided no more. No matter how much that tempting tray of mini-reeses cups call to me, I will not touch them. No matter how I think I miss eating like other people, I will eat protein first, drink my water and behave myself.
On a positive note, I did start a weight lifting program last week. I grabbed my little sheet from the gym. So far, I've only done it twice, but I've done cardio each time as well, and gone other times to just do cardio. Right now it seems easier to go after work. But once I get onto a production schedule again, it might be easier to go before. Either way, I will keep going.
Do not worry about me... I know the choice I made going into this surgery, so now I just have to firmly remind myself why I did it. And then not give in to the evil little voice in my head that drives me to distraction.
Interesting food note. I bought some sprouted bread and have had it in the freezer for weeks. Last night, after my workout, I decided to have a tuna sandwhich for dinner. Just one piece of bread (only 14 carbs) and made up so low-fat tuna salad with dill pickle. I thought it would taste heavenly. And it didn't. I think next time I make a tuna sandwhich, I may just toast the bread, and dump the tuna on, nothing else, no dressing or pickles. It just sounds cleaner and tastier.