They found me!

I had a message on my answering machine yesterday from a woman at my surgeons office. At that point, I realized that though I've been following my rules, making progress and all that fun stuff, I hadn't been getting any bloodwork done, nor talking to my doctor to let him know how I've been doing. Ooops.

But! They found me, called me, I called back and next Wednesday I've got an appointment (telephonic) with Dr. Wittgrove. Whee! I emailed them a picture of what I look like now. And, I now weigh exactly 200 lbs. Crazy.

Today was the fourth day this week that I went swimming. I've also been walking every single day in addition to the swimming. The only thing I'm not doing is strength training. Spoke with the boy on the phone about it mid-week, evidently he used to be very much into the muscle building thing, and seems pretty knowledgable. This does not take away my fear of looking foolish in the weight room. So, instead, I try to do muscle isolating exercises as I swim. Arms-only for a few laps. Now dolphin kick for a few laps. etc. Let me tell you, those few laps of dolphin kick made me feel my mid-section much more than any of the crunches I did in my room wednesday night. I did 100 crunches and felt like all they did was hurt my neck. I just don't know how to work-out I guess. I should probably get a personal trainer, just like I should probably get a psychologist, but guess what? I'm broke, so that is not going to happen. Therefore, the swimming will continue, the obsessive journalling will continue (I journal obsessively in my handwritten journal, sorry I don't do that here, but you all might think I should be put in a padded room if you read everything I think.) and I will continue to shrink and buy new clothing when I can afford it.

Okay then... That's all for now, folks.