In the midst of waiting

Tonight is a WLS support group meeting. I've been looking forward to this, but I have a feeling it might make me even more antsy. I want surgery now!

I keep thinking in the future tense. All about what I might look like, what activities I might be able to do. Practicing chewing my food, not drinking half an hour before or after eating. Trying to figure out what the highest protein foods are, etc. One of the craziest things my brain did was look at clothing sizes other than my standard 3,4 or 5X.

I want to take dance classes, get SCUBA certified, learn to rock climb. And it almost made me wonder, "Will I love theater as much when I'm not fat?" What if I want to do something else with my life? Well, we'll see when the time comes, eh?