Fifty Reasons

I'm still pouring over other WLS blogs. Many of them have lists, written either before or way after the surgery, of what they want to do once (or now that) the fat is gone.

I've been daydreaming, of course, but since everything is official. I guess now I can speak my dreams aloud. Because until I say something out loud (or posted to the world) I don't feel like it is really possible.

Fifty things I will do once I'm not Fat.

1. Run for fun
2. SCUBA dive
3. Rock Climb
4. Play Soccer again
5. Climb a tree
6. Shop in a thrift store
7. Shop in a regular store
8. Wear thigh-high boots
9. Learn how to salsa
10. T'ai Chi
11. Yoga, (not doing alternate positions)
12. Learn to Dive into a pool
13. Buy a bra that fits properly
14. Play on a pottery wheel
15. Sit on someone's lap
16. Take part in an overnight hike
17. Learn to Rollerskate
18. Wear sexy shoes
19. Ride a rollercoaster
20. Take a ballet class
21. Surf
22. Jump rope
23. Sky dive
24. Bungee Jump
25. Climb a fence
26. Buckle my seatbelt on a plane
27. Use the fold down tray on a plane
28. Flirt
29. Wear shirts tucked in
30. Wear a belt
31. Buy and wear t-shirts at a concert
32. Run a marathon
33. Play raquetball
34. Play tennis
35. Whitewater rafting
36. Kayaking
37. Wear short skirts
38. Not worry about breaking any chair I sit on
39. Be flirted with
40. Date
41. Sit in classroom chairs (attached to desks)
42. Cross my legs
43. Pull ups
44. Be told I'm beautiful, and believe it
45. Grow a gigantic garden and tend it well
46. Sing in a piano bar
47. Write a one-woman show
48. Hold a laptop in my lap
49. Play with kids until they're tired, not me
50. Win an Oscar

There's probably more, but I tried to keep as many negatives out of this list as possible. Some of these activities are things I always wanted to try, but was too afraid. Too afraid I'd be slow, too afraid I'd fall and hurt myself, too afraid people would look at me and say, "holy crap, look at that ridiculous fat beast." I know I'll still probably have fears. As the cliche goes, the surgery's for my body not my mind. I have 28 years of a certain mind-set to overcome. But, thankfully, I've never ever let my fat stop me from doing something I set my mind on doing, so, maybe my obstacles won't be too massive.

Only 12 days until surgery. Holy crap.